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I don’t know if it’s because I just recently got out of a relationship/shit or if I’m really just over the whole relationship bull shit. Usually I am so eager to just jump into a relationship despite all the red flags. So usually I don’t care if they don’t have a car, a job, or both. I usually ignore whether or not they are going to school or have yet to have finished it; I mean this isn’t a job interview after all. Shit, who cares if they even served time or annoying to most people, physically they are my type, their hott, come on over baby.



I guess I have always had the idea “oh what the hell, lets do this and see how far it goes good or bad." I mean it’s about the journey isn’t it, and not the destination or the outcome. Although, I end up playing the broken hearted girl not once or twice but all the damn time and I never learn but maybe just recently I have. I don’t want to say that I lost faith in that thing called love but maybe in a way I have or just not as excited about it as I was in the not too far past. I think love for me is like a sedative, it takes way the current pain, lets you forget about everything else that sucks in life temporarily filling that emptiness, and shit it feels good but in the end it never freaking last.



Some people tell me dude get over it, why are you looking for something so serious anyway; your young just have fun. Others might tell me, don’t loose faith, the right one will come around eventually. But look at the majority of people. I asked myself and a real good friend of mine that is currently in a relationshit, how many couples do you know that are truly happy with each other right now? How many couples do you find yourself saying, “man, I wish I had what they have.” For me that answer is no buddy. I might know two that paint a really good picture but the reality is kind of scary.



I mean I am not even asking for a perfect couple but just one that are happy to be together. Granted many of the people I know are around my age, early twenties, and well age doesn’t help either. So maybe I should take it easy on the whole “relationship” thing. I mean sure it would be nice to have someone to cuddle with, someone to talk to when you want some of that one on one attention, and that occasional affection.



I guess I can’t complain too much with what I got here being single. I party every weekend, meet new people often, know a lot of people from all around TX, got that anything could happen lifestyle, and lack of sex isn’t really a problem.



Sure if someone comes around that is cute enough yeah I’ll bite but they have to seek my attention and if they are really cute I will seek theirs. They have to be game for whatever the night has to offer from planning a trip to ATX for the weekend the day of to just chilling at home and drinking it up with the local peoples. They have to have cash flow, I mean I do so why can’t they because I am tired of supporting these broke dumb asses with out a car and without a job. Finally, they have to be social and not socially retarted. I can’t be bringing someone around my friends who are annoying or just socially isolated, those people need to get over themselves.



Sigh, I hate Monday, where is the weekend already?